#but that feels like such a stupid excuse
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I think part of what makes school so difficult for me, is how forced it all is. It takes up so much of my time, and I don't even want to do any of it. I hate being told what to do, but when you go to school, your whole life seems to be taken up by commands. Telling me what to do is a good way to ensure I will never do it. On top of that, you're expected to act 'normal'? Fuck that.
When you don't do as they ask, every interaction with teachers feels like an attempt to get you to act the way they want you to. Every compliment is about how you're smart enough to do your work, so why don't you? Wow! You've grown so much, please grow just a little more. I saw you looking at the right answer, so why didn't you answer the question? Some of the stuff they mention isn't even real, because they just see what they want to see. And what they want to see is either a contrarian little bitch, or a miserable, depressed kid who needs urgent help before they kill themselves or something.
I don't like being called smart, because that almost always carries the implication that I'm wasting my natural capabilities, or it's so overdone, that it feels like they're not complimenting me, the compliment is for the idealised version of myself that they want me to be. I'll never live up to those compliments unless I throw my happiness away, and force myself to act all wrong. It always feels like I'm just being complimented because people want me to act a certain way
#i also get stuck in loops of refusing obligations#for example as a kid i refused to learn to use the potty bc they forced it so hard at school#or i cannot physically make myself participate in sports class#bc i hate it#and once i didnt participate once teachers bothered me about it so much that i refused to participate again#and again#its a vicious cycle#but that feels like such a stupid excuse#oh sorry they tried to force me so now i cant do it ever#but ofc they just try to force it more & more#but i cant#and until they leave me the fuck alone i never will be able to#but i know that even if they do leave me alone about it they still want me to change?#like if i suddenly start participating the reactions will be horrible#'oh im so glad! you act the way i want you to again!'#i know very well that this is pda#i hate it#but mostly i hate the way teachers react to it#mine#ive been told the strategy they will try next year is confrontation#not sure thats gonna work very well#depends on how they do it but im worried that theyll just make this worse yknow?#by they i mean of course the school#they keep saying im making so much progress#but it feels more like im shoving myself away more & more#so i dont like being told that either#sure yeah i have been making actual progress recently#but most of the time they say that i dont feel any better#i just act more normal
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No one understands guilt better than a girl with emotionally immature parents
#personal#actually bpd#bpd#bpd vent#actually borderline#bpd thoughts#vent#actually traumatized#actually cptsd#emotionally immature parents#like my dad just stole my moms phone AGAIN to text me some BULLSHIT#as he always does. and I was mean because wtf#and now I feel bad cause he's trying to be nice even though 6 seconds ago he called me a spoiled asshole#I told him that if we never speak again he can look at the last chat we had where he basically called me a useless bitch#soooooooo 🤦♀️ unfortunately.....he never learns. I told him he should have never called me a stupid bitch when i was 5 yrs old#because that STUCK with me. so hard. and his response was well maybe you were being one#excuse ME?
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Had a silly idea of combining Crowley gifs with Zaphod Beeblebrox quotes because they're my two favorite characters and I'm very weird. I think it weirdly works, though
#good omens#crowley#anthony j crowley#stupid sexy snake#zaphod beeblebrox#the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy#hhgttg#the mashup no one asked for#i wasn't high when i thought of this#so i have no excuse#i feel like they would either get along great#or hate each other's guts#sir terry pratchett#neil gaiman#douglas adams
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Im so high but what if u were a rlly chubby puppysub n ur master posted ur pics online n everyone was like.. “omg that poor puppy it needs to go on a diet” “this owner is totally abusive for letting them blow up like this” like they always do for pets on insta?
#puddgyy.txt#listen I KNOW THIS IS A WEIRD ONE JUSY HERE ME OUT#as usual my excuse is that I’m high and I can’t be held responsible for what turns me on when I’m high#I guess this just feels slightly.. darker than I usually talk about? it’s not REALLY but it feels like it is for me bc I’m usually like#happy! praise! getting fat is good for u!#nsft wg#wg text#chubby pup play#fat pup play#also ppl who do that on insta are so stupid bc like 90% of the time the owner KNOWS and is trying to get them healthy#not in this post tho! hehe!
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Maybe I do need Le Mans to be over because if I have to see one more person being like "we need more F1 drivers in the 24h" and "imagine a team with [name 3 F1 drivers]" and "more F1 drivers in this race is how you grow motorsports", I will actually pass away.
F1 drivers are not the most important drivers out there! They would not immediately excel just because they know how to drive an F1 car! Endurance has its own specificities and difficulties! F1 drivers are not worth more than the endurance stars, some of them who have won the 24h of Le Mans more than once!
#monaco gp 24h of le mans and indy500 should be on different weekends and open to everyone who wants to have a try#at the triple crown#I feel like this is obvious but I've seen so many people agreeing to stupid takes on twitter#especially one that said#also the wec social media team over using f1 drivers in their posts#I could say same about vale but he has more championships and wins than literally all the f1 drivers put together so his relevance#in motorsports as a whole is way bigger#(they're still overdoing it a little imo but I can excuse it a little more)#(also it's his third GT season and he has a podium in wec already and he won a support race in le mans last year)
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I don’t think I’m ever gonna get over the fact that Bill Cipher ended up being possibly the most fucking tragic, traumatized, and just utterly BROKEN character in this entire series 💀
Like jesus christ it’s no wonder the guy literally lost his mind and went insane after everything that happened to him good god??
#gravity falls#the book of bill#bill cipher#text#no one cares zee#obviously doesnt excuse his actions or any shit like that LMAO#but DAMN I cant help but feel bad for this dumb fuckin triangle#even if hes an irridemable monster#I support this stupid doritos rights and wrongs#but especially his wrongs
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How do we feel about Beach wear Noritoshi....
Everyone thinks he'd go covered head to toe wearing those wet suits divers use, but no. Noritoshi isn't the type to want to attract attention to himself when it's not needed, so he'd try to blend in. Emphasis on try.
He's the guy wearing a covering or some shit. I think you'd have to fight him to wear a translucent one. (if you splash him with water, you'll acheive the same effect thoughahahaha) even though it's a beach, he's trying to find an appropriate way to cover up, hes just like that. yes to sunscreen ofc. I can see him in a sun hat, but it's not his.. maybe he took it from one of the girls
HIS HAIR WOULD BE UP BC ITD BE TOO HOT AND THE SUN HAT WOULD HELP HIM FROM GETTING OVERHEATED H.H....H IS FACE WOULD BE FLUSHED BC OF THE HEAT AND. AND. AND.. he's like the beach babe on the shore, soaking up the sun and reading a book or smth. if you splash him with water, i can see him trying to get you back. then boom bam, hes in the water with everyone else.
OH FUCK that's even IF he goes to the beach. it's like seeing God in the flesh, idk man I'd go blind........... hed probably come along when he realizes theres hot people at the beach. he cant have you looking at people in that state, hold on hes going. give him five minutes..!
EXTRA
[untied covering version under the cut. like his booefjehsaf are out aha.]
ahahahahahahahahaa *froths at the mouth*
mf dont even begin to look at me like that
#kamo noritoshi#noritoshi kamo#noritoshi#kamo noritoshi x reader#noritoshi kamo x reader#noritoshi x reader#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#FAM IMA BE SO FR W YOU. ITS SO COLD WHERE I AM RN#AS OF POSTING THIS#BUT ITS FUCKING SUMMER SOMEWHERE OUT THERE SO LETS FUCKING GO#IM TELLING YOU WHEN I FUCKING SAW THIS ASK I FROZE#HOW ARE WE FEELING?????#FAM WE'RE FEELING FUCKING DEAD AND RESUSCITATED#GOD I FEEL LIKE YOU ANSWERED MY PRAYERS OR SOME SHIT BC I WANTED TO TAKE THIS MANS SHIRT OFF SO BAD BUT NEVER HAD A PROPER EXCUSE#OFFICER. GOD. TUMBLR STAFF.... THIS IS PURELY FOR THE SAKE OF ANDSWERING MY BELOVED CULT MEMBER'S QUESTION#I SWEAR THERE IS NO OTHER UNDERLYING REASON#OFFICER PLEASE#nah its embarrassing how hyped i got for this ask#you got me wide awake at 8 am bc of beach wear......#I WANTED TO SHOW HIS WAIST BUT THE FUCKING STUPID COVERING BLOCKED IT ALL.#WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME @ MYSELF?!??????#DOES THIS COUNT AS SUGGESTIVE????#NO. ITS JUST HIS CHEST. DONT LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT 👊💥💥👊💥👊💥💥#HOW COULD I FORGET ABOUT THE NORITOSHI THAT TEASES YOU BACK...... IM SUCH A FOOL. GOD STRIKE ME DOWN RN......#DUDE I DABBLED IN IT A BIT HERE BUT OH MY FUCK.... IT NEEDS AN ENTIRE POST OH FUCK#tysm anon I'll love you till my heart rots#you dont understand my devastation half way through when he kinda looked like beach geto. pinterest if you ever get your filthy paws on thi#and call him geto. istg ill gut you alive#null rot
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These are from the pages right after
obsessed with how little of a fuck he gave here he really was about to square up naked 😭
#snap chats#WITH HIS FUCK-OFF RAZOR its feels illegal seeing erik with like. An Actual weapon* in his hand *makeshift weapon whatever#i mean real as hell. but still jvELRKJ#he really aint give a damn once he realized it was chill either he's naked this whole bit till they go to the med bay ....#its just one extra panel but still .. no towel no 'gimme a moment' no nothing this too dire for that and i respect it tbh#SPEAKING OF THO his stupid lil shorts and sweater once he Actually puts clothes on ..... im obsessed#also Again the realest i-need-clothes-asap outfit imaginable i felt that#we as a society started to decline when we stopped putting men in lil shorts ... and cute lil sweaters ...#anyways Thank You Again for putting these panels in front of my eyes again and for giving me an excuse to reread this segment#erik's rage is so delicious after this bit <3 absolutely excellent ..
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Done with our favorite Spider-Boy! Spiderling? Spider... What was his name again?
Avengers paper cutout 6/?
#avengers paper cutout project#art#sorry it's been FOREVER since I did a thing for this series lol#lowkey I've had this done for like... a month... maybe 2 months...?#and just didn't post it because I wasn't 100% happy with it#but well. when someone has a bad day and you want to cheer them up a little you can't be chasing perfection I guess#I also want to do more bird art soon!#just haven't been feeling creative lately due to Certain Life Events:tm:#but today was the first decent day I've had in a while where I didn't go home and then immediately fall into a doom scroll spiral on the co#the couch#stupid tag word limit#anyway yeah hopefully you'll be hearing a little more from me soonish#and by soonish i mean like another 2 weeks probably...#look even when I'm feeling decent I am SLOOOOOOW at this lmao#uhh anyway there's only natasha left out of the OG6 so she's up next#actually probably similar color scheme for peter assuming it'll be a black gun on the hourglass bg#but I kinda hate the black lol it makes the edges look so bad!#we'll see maybe I'll find a picture of her with a different looking gun and use that as an excuse#enough tag rambling I need to post this and then get ready for bed lol#hope y'all enjoy my silly little art#which i guess is kinda seasonally appropriate now??#IGNORE MY RAMBLING UP THERE THIS WAS MY SECRET PLAN ALL ALONG MHM MHM I PLANNED THIS SO WELL
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“put me on a pedestal and i’ll only disappoint you
tell me i’m exceptional, and i promise to exploit you
gimme all your money, and i’ll make some origami honey!
i think you’re a joke!!! …but i don’t find you very
fuuuuuuu~nyyy”
More tagr art!!! Assorted stuff this time! Featuring some cute chibi stuff. Some solo gaz’s, a lil uhhh. Comic of an altercation.. and a very belated Halloween pic I started drawing last Halloween and didnt finish lol. Also featuring lyrics from pedestrian at best cuz that song rllly rlly fits my ver of tak lol.
#invader zim#gaz membrane#invader tak#tagr#iz tak#iz gaz#tak#doodles#there toxic yuri!!! they’re all over the place!!! tak is tsundere insane alien who fueled by revenge it’s gonna be rough!#I think. there relationship would slowly grow and develop as gaz is helping tak w all her injuries#but I think they’d end up having a true true falling out sometime after take fully healed and gets her ship back.#and they’d be split up for a few years maybe? idk how long I’d want it to be. but! yeah.#absence makes the heart grow fonder and makes u realize how fucking stupid u are#and eventually they’d reunite and shit would be better lol#I don’t want them to be at each others throats forever that’d suck lol#theyre just definitely are moments where there at each others throats in the beginning#but they r also moments.. where they both feel true belonging and acceptance. like they never have before… and it blows there lil minds…#I also dO want gaz to go into space at some point w tak cuz that’d be fucking awesome#after they reunite again they can go explore the universe a bit#these r all very half baked ideas btw and also my brains mush cuz ive been drawing all day#so please excuse if said ideas suck. also please excuse all the typos lol#I might change my mind on the them separating idk… or maybe make it a shorter amount of time… idk!! I havent thought thru all this shit lol#it’s not like I’m gonna write a story or actually make a comic I’m just drawing random fanart#I don’t need to have all these thoughts all solidified lol
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It makes sense when you have a character you relate to very strongly, that when you see things with that character it sometimes can make it feel very personal and when it’s something that doesn’t match how you feel about the character it is overwhelming and you can’t stand to look at it. I am the same way with my own comfort character, it is hard to look in the character tags even though I want to see art because of the way a lot of the fandom shows them. Especially because one relationship is always shown romantic or sexual but I like it more like friends or siblings or some other close bond. For me, in my head if I see the ship tag I try to just change it to mean a friendship haha, but it is hard sometimes.
Who knows if it’s right or wrong to feel this way about characters but your own boundaries on your own blog aren’t hurting anyone so it isn’t their business. Sometimes things are just bad and you can’t explain it but don’t want to see it anyway.
Anyway platonic shippers deserve to have their own art and content of their characters and relationships, people who act like they are entitled to make every art romantic are just mean.
!!! I know this ask came in my box when I was posting a rant, I am so sorry for taking so long to answer 😭 (sometime I just don't know what to answer, or felt a bit overwhelmed abt the situation kskdkfkzs)
Thank you so much for understanding, anon ! And so sorry you also live through all of this too ! 🥹
#reply#it feels great 😭 srsly thank you anon !!#sometime people said “this is internet what do u expect”#why does it becomes an excuse for beong stupid idk 🙄#i MEAN I'M NOT SAYING PEOPLE R STUPID BUT.... yeah. i did meet people under my comment being just huh. how to say it politely#completely misunderstanding the concept of comprehension and respect that it looks like they are purposely being annoying ☝️#I already actively block people or mask them#but sometime I read their tag or comments and I can't help to sigh loudly 🙄#ANYWAYBGBDBGDJD done of being salty why having brain having nervous system while it can have a chill system ‼️
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HC that Nicky struggles with chronic depression and Erik is the only one who sees how dark it gets. When Nicky doesn't feel the need to clown around for an audience he just crumbles.
#excuse me but I feel like we moved past the little detail of conversation therapy too fast#growing up with two parents that never loved him unconditionally#devouting the very first years of his adult life to two cousins that torment him non stop#we all understand Nicky is fucked up#I don't think we realise how deeply fucked up he is beneath his stupid jokes and easy laughter#nicky hemmick#all for the game#aftg#the foxhole court#andrew minyard#nora sakavic
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i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo
#ganondoodles talks#also probably sounds like self pity#but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist#i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think#but the internet never gets to see that much of me#i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere#so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing#i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out#i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with#i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong#im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh#it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again#sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with-#-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it#doesnt sound like a good excuse#... i want to thank those that do stick with me#even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise#there are little things that still make me angry at myself#like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing#and i got two#and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop#i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late#i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom#no matter how much i enjoy the ask#and i love getting asks!!!#im sorry :((
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Sometimes I remember when my hyperfixation with Grian got so bad that I started calling my friend Grian
#I DID FOR A WHOLE 2 WEEKS.#IT WAS ACTUALLY INSANE#the only reason why im brining it up WAS BECAUSE I DID IT AGAIN.#TO THE SAME PERSON TOO#I genuinely feel bad about it but like he doesnt give a fuck so i laugh about it#BUT OH MY GOD IM SO STUPID#MY EXCUSE IS THAT THEY HAVE SIMILAR NAMES LIKE U CANR HATE ME FOR THAT#hermitcraft grian#grian#grianmc#i love grian#hermitblr#hermitcraft
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You can all have this old-ish doodle of Sebastian looking like a rather displeased tortoise while I work today for nourishment while I’m unavailable to doodle responses to ask. Enjoy
#this totally wasnt an excuse to share this stupid doodle i love so much#i feel like if he saw you wearing a metallica shirt hed challenge you to name five songs#from every single album#and be like ‘and you CANT name the most popular ones’#i know he would. i feel this so strongly in my soul#i believe this so strongly i am VERY tempted to commission gianni for this and make an animatic#pressure escapee au#not an ask#sebastian solace#this is TECHNICALLY escapee au concept art. if you think about it
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y'all are so weird and invasive with your questions.
instead of being creepy, think of something fun, or don't ask anything at all.
in what world do you think it's okay to ask them all those weird things i've seen.
it's so off-putting
and some of y'all don't know how the game works
#Some of you are /excuse me for saying this/ but genuinely stupid#In what world do you think its okay to ask about kissing and their bedroom life#Also the game question should be a question starting with /who/#I'm feeling some type of way about this#Just because they (over)share about stuff doesn't mean you have the right to pry like this#Be ashamed#dan and phil#dan howell#daniel howell#phil lester#philip lester
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